A Letter to Heaven

Dear Brenda, last year we all wrote you letters to remind you of what a special person you are to us. This year I'm sending you a letter to heaven. I hope you know what a hole is left since you went to heaven. I know God had a plan for your life here on earth and had a bigger plan for you in heaven. Like Coy said awhile back, every time a bell rings an angel gets it's wings, and we know you are keeping busy enough that you are wearing out lots of pairs of wings, so we've been ringing more bells for you. I hate that you were sick and went through so much pain and I'm sure you worried more than you let on. I am grateful for the time I got to spend with you. I got to know you so much better while you were being treated here in Denver and feel robbed, as I felt like a relationship for us was really beginning, and it ended too quickly. I was looking at a picture the other day taken April 5th 2008, exactly 8 months to the day before you left us. You and Brian were here holding our tiny little son, Luke. I was grateful that you had come and so glad that you could be here the day he was born. Now we are waiting for another baby to arrive, a little girl who will bear her aunt Sissy's middle name. This time I will not hear your giggle as you take everyones picture holding that new baby, nor will I see you sitting and staring at her face, but I know you will be from above. I do not know what emotions the day will hold when I see my daughter's face, but please know I will think of you. I feel you had something to do in handing us this special little girl.
I do not understand why our prayers were not answered for you to stay here on earth longer, I try not to question but have faith that God knows best. Please know that though our day to day lives go on, that you are so very missed. There is a place missing that will never be filled. We will continue to share all that we can of you by the ways you've influenced our lives. I'm sending you a big squeeze today. Please keep getting things ready for us up there... it will be a joyous day when we are all united again. Missing you now and always.